A Little Update...

I'm so bless with three wonderful and beautiful boys. I'm thankful for those 3 little men, if it wasn't for them I would probably crumble into a dark hole somewhere. They are everything to me, they make me smile, laugh, and just put me in a good mood like their daddy did. I see so much of Jason when I look at them. J.C. looks just like Jason, with those blue eyes, turn up nose and those big full lips. Carson acts just like him, its so crazy how he talks like him, he's so quick-witted, has a humor like him, energy, and he is mean just like Jason was. Now Brayden he's still young, but he has Jason's attitude. Brayden knows what he likes, don't like and isn't afraid to let you know just like Jason was. Its so crazy how they remind me of him, they are like his 3 mini Jason.

Saturday I registered J.C. and Carson for coaches pit baseball. They are so excited, but its bittersweet for me. I'm so excited for them but deep down I think about Jason not being here. It was J.C.'s first year to play and Jason got to see him play but with Carson he wont be here to see his first year.

I'm also planning Brayden's first birthday party. I can't believe he's going to be one! Its crazy how this year has flew by. I wish I could go redo this year and slow it down. I want that year with Jason again. So I can tell him how special he was to me and how much I do love him. I know he knows that I do but I want to say it again and again. I wish that Jason and I could actually spend time with Brayden in he's first year. We missed alot of time with him. He grew up so fast and I want that back. Time flies by so tell people how much they mean to you and that you love them cause I would have never thought that I wouldn't have my Jason. Spend time with your family cherish those times hug, smile, laugh, and love the people in your life. Life is short, very short.