Happy Memorial Day!!!!!

We had a great time at Lake Greenwood, the only thing that was missing was Jason.He loved camping and fishing with boys and daddy. He also enjoyed putting up the camper with me and mama but he would have been so proud of his boys they enjoyed fishing with papa and Jeff.

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The balm of God's Love

The Balm Of God's Love

When we lose someone we love
The loss seems too great to bear
God sends us friends to comfort us
To show that He deeply cares

But in the dark hours of the night
When there’s nobody else around
When we feel the saddest and loneliest
It’s there God’s love can be found

It’s like a soothing, healing balm
To soothe our broken hearts
The healing oil poured over us
That flows into every part

We can rest secure in God’s love
And know He’s by our side
He holds us when we feel as though
A part of us has died

We can know that God will listen
When we just want to talk
And when we feel we need to cry
We can share it with the Lord

For He is always waiting there
Ready with arms open wide
As we pour out the hurt within
He pours His love inside

Our Father above loves us so much
And will never leave us alone
He will not forsake us in our need
To face this on our own

He comforts us and strengthens us
And rubs us with His balm
And as the dawn breaks through the night
We’ll awake in His loving arms.

Thank you Jeff for sending this poem. It really touched me.

Hanging with the Monkeys

We went to the zoo yesterday with the kids from SSBC. They had a blast, while the adults were ready to go home when we got there. The day started out nice, cool, and with some rain showers, but the sun came out it was miserable. The kids wanted to go, go, go, they had so much energy and it just wore me out watching them. I'm glad they did have a good time. The best part was lunch time, the picnic tables were in the shade and it was oh so very nice. We didn't wont to leave that spot but we it was all about the kids. Just kidding. Those kids at SSBC are so precious to me and love each and everyone of them. Cant believe how the children program has increased over the past year. Its growing and loving every minute of it. The leaders of the program are wonderful and you can really tell how much they care for those kids and I'm just so glad that I was asked to help with them. God has really blessed SSBC. I pray that we continue to grow not only in the church but they can grow closer to God. Enjoy the smilebox!!

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Jason, We'll never forget you

Today is Jason's birthday May 20, 2010, he would have been 26 but its his first birthday in heaven. Its a celebration of his short but wonderful life. Not going to be sad, but so Thankful that I spent the last 6 years of his life. Jason was the most energetic person I knew, he tried to be big and bad but alot of people don't know that he had a soft and big heart for people. The years that we were together he grew into a wonderful husband and daddy. He was a child at heart and I guess that why kids just loved him. His 3 precious boys worshipped the ground he walked on. That was their role model and still want to be just like their daddy. I asked them last night what they missed about their daddy and they replied "Fighting", "Wrestling on the floor", and "Bath Time". What I remember the most about Jason was when Jason and the boys would take a bath and Jason would holler at me to get the boys out. When I would come into the bathroom Jason would be pouring cold water on them. Ha! Then I would get the towels and wrap around the boys then Jason would say "I'm next." He wanted me to get him out too. Gah I love him so much and I know he loved me and the boys. Like all relationship we fought and had some trouble times but we worked at them and got very close through those trials. We had to grow up fast, and we stuck by each other and that is why we were so close. I also remember him venting to me, and that was a everyday thing for him. Someone done made him mad and all he wanted to do was talk. That's another thing he like to do was talk. I can remember many nights we would go outside to smoke and he would just talk, talk, and talk about anyone and everything. I do miss our talks. Alot people didn't take him seriously but he was very smart and knew what he was doing. The other thing I missed about him he didn't care what you thought of him, he dressed the way he wanted, acted the way he wanted, and if you didn't like him oh well. He was himself and that's another reason why we got alone cause we didn't care to impress people or suck up to people. I do believe that Jason and I were soul mates and he was my BEST FRIEND. On May 24, it would be 7yrs. I wanted to be with him until we were old and gray and I guess that why I still don't think its fair that our time was cut short but its all according to God's Plan. Jason loved his family, until now there wasn't a day that we didn't see each other. We enjoyed each others company and another memory I have was when we were dating and it snowed really bad, he drove all the way from boiling springs to Pauline with snow and ice just to see me. I will cherish the love that we had for each other. When Jason was in the hospital and his nurse Marcia would come in the room and talk to us at night and she told me that I should have kept a journal of our life together and write a book. That doesn't mean I'm going to write a book but I will share that with our 3 boys one day. Our boys are my life right now so I don't have time for anything else. They are my main priority and I will always put them first. Jason loved his boys so much they were his life and was so proud of them. I'm glad that I can talk to J.C. and Carson about their daddy cause they remember so much about him, the way he walks, talks, and even how he use to put his t-shirt on. So we planted his favorite tree weeping willow in the front yard of my parents house. That tree is for them. So every year on his birthday they can look at that tree in memory of their daddy but not just for his birthday but everyday. I know alot of people was touch by Jason's story they tell me all the time but not only strangers but his family. I have learned so much through him and learned about myself as well. Life is so short so spend the time with your friends and family tell them how much you love and care for them. Don't take your family for granted because we are not promised tomorrow.

Wordless Wednesday: Little Becky

What I would do without my books???

I love to read. In high school, I hated it but for some reason it calms, soothe, and relaxes me. When I had alot on my mind and the life is so filled with drama and unfairness I just grab me a book and everything that was on my mind is focus on the book. Right now, I'm into supernatural stuff like vampires, witches, and all that craziness. And no, I'm not one of these weirdos that wear all black and want to become a Witch who tries to suck blood from someone. I just like to read fiction books that not true and will never be true.



My first vampire series was the twilight, and I LOVE ME SOME TWILIGHT, if someone out there that hasn't read the series needs to cause its wonderful, addicting, and the best love story ever.



My second vampire series was "the vampire diaries" that was also very addicting. I read the first books in like a week, it was awesome couldn't put the book down. Now the last book of the series wasn't that good, for some reason I had to stop reading it cause it was so boring but I will finish it sometime in the near future.


My third vampire series I am currently ready is the "sookie stackhouse series" for the ones that don't have no clue what that is theirs a show based on the book called "Trueblood". I haven't watched the series but I'm on the second book in that series. I read the first book in like 1 1/2 days, could NOT put the book down.



After I read that series, its probably gonna take awhile cause its got 7 books in that series, then I'm gonna move on to the next series that I got called the "Vampire Academy."
I wouldn't know what to do without my kids and my books to get me through this tough time. If you love books and wont some reviews on certain books go to goodreads.com, you can read the reviews and rates on books, very good information if you want to start reading a certain books. Hope everyone has enjoyed my VAMPIRE blog. Ha! Ha!

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