Jason, We'll never forget you

Today is Jason's birthday May 20, 2010, he would have been 26 but its his first birthday in heaven. Its a celebration of his short but wonderful life. Not going to be sad, but so Thankful that I spent the last 6 years of his life. Jason was the most energetic person I knew, he tried to be big and bad but alot of people don't know that he had a soft and big heart for people. The years that we were together he grew into a wonderful husband and daddy. He was a child at heart and I guess that why kids just loved him. His 3 precious boys worshipped the ground he walked on. That was their role model and still want to be just like their daddy. I asked them last night what they missed about their daddy and they replied "Fighting", "Wrestling on the floor", and "Bath Time". What I remember the most about Jason was when Jason and the boys would take a bath and Jason would holler at me to get the boys out. When I would come into the bathroom Jason would be pouring cold water on them. Ha! Then I would get the towels and wrap around the boys then Jason would say "I'm next." He wanted me to get him out too. Gah I love him so much and I know he loved me and the boys. Like all relationship we fought and had some trouble times but we worked at them and got very close through those trials. We had to grow up fast, and we stuck by each other and that is why we were so close. I also remember him venting to me, and that was a everyday thing for him. Someone done made him mad and all he wanted to do was talk. That's another thing he like to do was talk. I can remember many nights we would go outside to smoke and he would just talk, talk, and talk about anyone and everything. I do miss our talks. Alot people didn't take him seriously but he was very smart and knew what he was doing. The other thing I missed about him he didn't care what you thought of him, he dressed the way he wanted, acted the way he wanted, and if you didn't like him oh well. He was himself and that's another reason why we got alone cause we didn't care to impress people or suck up to people. I do believe that Jason and I were soul mates and he was my BEST FRIEND. On May 24, it would be 7yrs. I wanted to be with him until we were old and gray and I guess that why I still don't think its fair that our time was cut short but its all according to God's Plan. Jason loved his family, until now there wasn't a day that we didn't see each other. We enjoyed each others company and another memory I have was when we were dating and it snowed really bad, he drove all the way from boiling springs to Pauline with snow and ice just to see me. I will cherish the love that we had for each other. When Jason was in the hospital and his nurse Marcia would come in the room and talk to us at night and she told me that I should have kept a journal of our life together and write a book. That doesn't mean I'm going to write a book but I will share that with our 3 boys one day. Our boys are my life right now so I don't have time for anything else. They are my main priority and I will always put them first. Jason loved his boys so much they were his life and was so proud of them. I'm glad that I can talk to J.C. and Carson about their daddy cause they remember so much about him, the way he walks, talks, and even how he use to put his t-shirt on. So we planted his favorite tree weeping willow in the front yard of my parents house. That tree is for them. So every year on his birthday they can look at that tree in memory of their daddy but not just for his birthday but everyday. I know alot of people was touch by Jason's story they tell me all the time but not only strangers but his family. I have learned so much through him and learned about myself as well. Life is so short so spend the time with your friends and family tell them how much you love and care for them. Don't take your family for granted because we are not promised tomorrow.