Only Time will tell I guess...

I know I haven't blog in awhile alot of things are going on. The boys stay busy with school, karate, and football. The past couple of weeks I have been going to the gym with my sister and I love the quality time with her. This week hasn't been to good for me. Every morning I would get ready and go to the gym workout and do a class each day, but this week I haven't felt like do anything. I have been missing Jason like crazy. Yesterday was 9months since his death, as time goes by it feels like its getting worse. I miss Jason more and more everyday. I miss his smile and laughter. He was the only one who could make me so mad but than turn around and make me laugh. He had so much life and it was cut so short. Its just so lonely in this quiet house, I just wish that he would come running in the house and say tricked you if only wishes came true. I have got to realize that he's not coming back and I will see him again but its just hard waiting on that day to come. I know I am being Debbie Downer but its just how I have been feeling lately. I know I should get out of the house and go about my day with the gym but I just don't feel like it right now. Its lonely in this house but right now I think I should be by myself right now to think things through. Only Time will tell I guess......