A VOID

As I seat here all I can think about is Jason. I miss him so much. He was my best friend the one I talk to about everything. He knew me more than I knew myself. Sometimes I just sit here and start to say something then I look around and Jason isn't there to talk to. I miss our long talks outside and our talks in the car. He was a very special person to me. I'm at peace with this because I know Jason loved me so much and I loved him. We had that special bond that nobody could ever break. I just miss the times with him. We had some of the greatest times together and we have been through alot. We got married and started a family together at a young age so we had to grow up faster than anyone our age. Alot of people didn't think we would have made it so long but Hey we showed them. We been together 7 years, I wish I would have grown old with him and I guess that's what makes it so hard. Our time here together was cut short, his time with the boys was cut short of the stupid Graph thing. I miss our time being a family. We had a beautiful family and I am so thankful that God put me and Jason together to have 3 beautiful and precious boys in the world. I miss his crazy tail making me laugh, and the boys. I loved when he would get hyper and start jumping on me while I was on the couch and say "JUMP ON THE CROC" or "ROLL OVER" and my favorite "I CREATED THIS TREND" gah I have so many memories of him but I don't wont memories I want Jason.

A VOID

What can fill that empty space
That seems a hollow pit.
When something there is missing
And nothing seems to fit.

How do you fill the emptiness
And satisfy the inner hunger;
When all in life has left you starved
But no where's found the answer.

Outside yourself, you start to look
But still there stands the void.
The little things you used to love,
No longer seen enjoyed.

Don't talk to me of Jesus,
For I'm his and he is mine,
but even though I know him;
I'm still not feeling fine.

Tomorrow, I'll go searching,
And tell you what I find
But if my search should prove in vain;
It will have satisfied my mind.