Man! Time Flies By...Where does it go??

I can remember being in the hospital having J.C. and Carson. They were so little and precious. I thought that they would stay that way forever. I was wrong. They have grown up so fast. I wish that I could go back in time and slow things down so I can cherish every moment again. Now they are going to preschool. They are BIG boys now and act so independent. Its like they don't need MOMMY. I know I thought I would be so happy to get 3hrs away from them but I miss them so MUCH. It breaks my heart when they get out of the van and into school. I know they are learning alot in school. They are so SMART but deep down its like I don't want them to grow up. I never thought that 2 little boys can touch my heart they way they do. They got me around their little fingers. I'm so happy that they are going to a christian preschool and to really teach them about Jesus. It really touch my heart when I gave J.C. a pudding and while I walking out of the kitchen I heard the sweetest little prayer and I turned around and J.C. had his eyes close with his hand together. I just listened and it said "Thank you for making me and loving me....Thank you for this pudding and spoon." I just stood there and started crying. I was so proud. So I'm very impressed with this school that they are going too. I know it breaks my heart when they get out of the van BUT my heart reconnects when I'm pick them up and I see them walking towards the door and they are just a waving and smiling. So after all, THEY DO NEED THEIR MOMMY!!!

I'll make sure to post some picture of my school boys...